15-January-2017

Aaj office pahchane se pahle Anjani se bat ho rahi thi msg me. Main kl usse kaha tha ki main 2 baje sota hu aur 4:30 baje jag jata hu. To wo kah rahi thi ki bina soye, how u can manage. Isi tarah se normal bat hui aur main office chala gya. 11:40 me break liya aur didi ko call karke pucha ki mobile kaun sa colour ka lena h. To kahi ki ko v mujhe pasand h wo le lu, fir boli ki gold colour me le lu. Lekin uski bat se aisa laga ki kahna chah rahi ho ki kuch dene to hai nahi bas drama kar raha h. Usse jyada bat nh hua bas colour k bare me puch kar phone cut kar diye. Aaj fir se Safikul ka call aya tha. Lekin main usko call nh kiya aur apne 20 minute idhar-udhar ghum kar dubara office chala gya. Sam ko office se nikalne k bad Anjani ko msg kiya ki main office se nikal gya. Tum kaha ho. Lekin uska koi reply nh aya. Fir main v koi msg nh kiya. Main fir didi ko call kiya bat to usse kafi der hui lagbhag 30-40 minute, Lekin last me kah rahi thi ki mujhe life me ab akela rahna hai. Jaha koi meri problem ko na share kare na mujhe paresan kare. Etc etc..... Lekin mujhe pata h ki aisa nh h dunia me har koi apna problem kisi na kisi k sath jarur share karta h. Chahe wo childhood friend ho, office k friend ho, college friend ho, close friend ho ya fir relative ho. Wo alag bat h ki usko mere se bat nh karna h. Jabki main use bachpan se ek dost ki tarah manta aya hu, uski har ek galti ko dusre se chupata aya hu. Kher, ab usko mujhse bat nh karni h to koi bat nh yahi sahi. Lekin kahi na kahi mujhe ye lagta ki ab usko mobile dekar main galti kar raha hu. Qki main usko mobile isliye nh de raha tha ki wo meri bahan h, balki isliye de raha tha qki wo meri friend h. Aur kafi dino se uska whatsapp chalu nh h to msg me bat nh hota h. Aur isliye hi jab wo mera Samsung ka mobile use kar rahi thi to uska main 200 rupaye ka recharge kar diya tha sirf internet k liye. Lekin ab kosis karunga ki main usko mobile na du aur usko lage ki main dena chahta tha but nh de paya. Qki jab friend hi nh h to fir itna hm q kare. Aur ek bat mobile kharidne wali bat main apni maa se chupa liya lekin wo apni maa ko bata di. Matlab ki hamare bich trust nam ki chij v nh h jo kisi v friendship ka base hota h. Kher, ab is bare me bat karna hi bekar h. Iske bad main ghar aa gaya. Aaj vishal k sath kali-bari mela ghumne ka plan tha lekin fir wo cancel kar diya plan ko. Main rat ko 9 baje tak Anjani ko msg kiya tab jakar uska reply aya aur fir ham rat ko 12:30 baje tak bat kiye. Wo kah rahi thi ki main daily-daily is tarah se msg me bat nh kar paungi. Qki time manage nh kar paungi. To 2-3 din me ek bar msg me bat karungi. Fir uska aircel ka kuch paisa kata tha uska bat kiye. Wo kah rahi thi ki mujhe anjan logo se bat karna pasand nh hai. Lekin tum pahle aisa friend ho jisse main itna bat kar rahi hu msg me. Mujhe lagta h ki mujhe meri friend mil gayi aur ab mujhe didi ki koi jarurat nh h, bhar me jaye wo.